Saturday, February 18, 2006

Valentine's Day special...



I had a different post in mind...but since mush is still in the air...I thought of posting something that was written years back...it won me my first creative writing prize in school...since I continue to remain a emotional fool, here it goes...

Where is Love?

I am pure, I don't hate, I don't envy, I don't feel proud. I don't promise you anything...I am just waiting to be found. I dwell in each one of you, deep within your souls I exist, unknown to most of you, misunderstood and misinterpreted by most of you...I am Love!

I just wish you could understand me a little better than you do today. It hurts to see that I have been so distorted. It's amazing that though I exist in each one of you, you still fail to realise my presence.

I am there in each pain a woman feels when she brings her child into this world, I am there in every penny a child saves for his mother’s gift, I am there in each tear that drops when a loved one dies, I am there the first time a young girl blushes when she sees her chosen one, I am there in every pang you feel when your loved one is going away.

I understand it looks difficult when you see people apparently falling in and out of love, as they call it. But hold on, I am still there for people who are true and honest. Don’t expect me to be a dream come true, don’t expect me to be the answer to all the numerous questions you ask yourself.

Can you still hear the beating of your heart? Can you still hear the cry which is tearing your soul apart but doesn’t show at all on the exterior? Do you feel a complete sense of confidence deep within you? Do you feel a pang of sadness every time a special person moves away from you? Yes, I am there, within you, amidst the thumping of those numerous muscles.

I may not be present between a boy and a girl running around the tress singing a romantic song but I am there in the silent prayer of gratitude you say when you are happy. Yes, I am there when tears brim from your eyes with the joy you feel in your heart.

Don’t question me? Dream lovely dreams but don’t expect them to come true. Acknowledge my presence, just feel my touch, like a breath of fresh air, like the beauty of blooming flowers, like the glittering multitude of stars at night.

I am an all-encompassing feeling. I am a wave of emotion, I am storm of pain. Yes, I bring pain along. I have to or you will never know what it feels when I am not there. If you are careless enough to lose me, you will that intense pain, the feeling will wrench your soul, the feeling of loss…so difficult to overcome.

Don’t look for me moonlit nights, don’t look for me in Mills ‘n Boons novels, don’t look for me Archies cards, don’t search for me in the expensive Valentine’s Day gift you got…
Ever felt like reaching out to someone, not for who the person is but for what the person is? Have a thousand words come to your lips but you never said them because you are afraid that voicing them might hurt someone? Have you ever wanted something badly but never bought it because you needed the money to gift something to someone else? Have stayed up late at night finishing an assignment for someone else? Have you looked up at the sky, seen the stars and felt comfortable by just thinking that someone somewhere is wishing upon the same stars.

Finding me is just the beginning, you have to be strong enough to hold on to a lot more pain, surprises, anticipations and happiness that will come your way. Stop questioning and enjoy each and every moment. Don’t try to hide me, I will reflect in your eyes, in the warmth you feel, in the affection that floods your heart, in the immature way you will sometimes behave, the stupidities, the craziness are all a part of me. So just sit back and hold on…you need to.

All thoughts, all passions, all delights,
Whatever stirs this mortal frame,
All are but ministers of me,
And feed this sacred frame.

Catch me if you can!

13 Comments:

Blogger Crizzie Criz! said...

Like Jim carrey said in 'Bruce Almighty,' "B.E.A-Utiful". The prize you got in school was all worth it.

You also just inspired me to put up a piece on my blog which i had written all that while a go,

but this one is not about love, rather its about death, a piece which i wrote in the solitude of a grave yard...

thanks for making me a believer, that old writings can still inspire you to write once more...

11:41 AM  
Blogger : M : said...

i like looknig thru the archives of my consciousness; there is always some germ there just waiting to bud. i;m glad you seem to feel the same way.

it was a very nice piece of writing though. handled with a lot of ease.

1:24 PM  
Blogger anup.777 said...

very very very beautifully written! :)

Have captured the essence extremely well... keep writing!

12:09 AM  
Blogger acidrocks said...

Hey another well written post sweety..!!!! But do all of us actually look at LOVE the way you have written it..? Unfortunately not.. I think it has been distorted beyond proportion...I really agree with the post...thats how we should treat " LOVE"

8:03 PM  
Blogger Roshomon said...

crizzie criz: thanks...I am humbled if what I wrote has inspired you in anyway.

3:35 AM  
Blogger Roshomon said...

caffeine addict: yeah..going through some archives brings up strange things.

3:37 AM  
Blogger Roshomon said...

anup: thanks

3:37 AM  
Blogger Roshomon said...

anup: thanks

3:37 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Loved this!

7:13 AM  
Blogger : M : said...

sure does.

1:57 PM  
Blogger PNA said...

did i hear right,..........u wrote it when in school ....

this amazinf girl!! beautiful .....
simply simply beautiful
great work

Ash

11:47 PM  
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Anonymous Anonymous said...

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